This the best note I've ever been tagged by my friend.

He tagged me on this post on my commencement day, APRIL 9TH 2011.

"Now when I think about my just-ended-college life, and after i look back to the last 4-and-a-half years of the so-called higher education, I only have a few things to say.

I may haven't show a considerably good performance when it comes to general expectation. But really, I feel like I did my best on this. And an average C+ is indeed my best, i admit that. There are no regrets whatsoever in myself about that.

If I say that I haven't learned anything useful in the last 4.5 years, or if I say that I am just not good in this field, or even If I say that i hated the subjects, i'd call myself a hypocrite. I'm indeed in denial. There are at least some part of my study that made it through my deepest consciousness and made me feel like I can do most of the stuff i learned.

But, it's just the refusal of being Institutionalized that drove me to think, act, or do things that are just 'abnormal' to the mass judgment. I am indeed scared as shit to imagine myself dependent of a title, standards, or a system-wide quality check that limit myself to do things I want. I am scared as shit to imagine that one day on the outside world, I am forced to join the society the way I didn't plan on doing.

The truth is, being in a higher education institution -especially in this country- does that to us. We're an instant institutionalized individuals. Some people made it to the extremes thinking that they're actually holding the key to the world, where in my perception it just could be the key to their own doom. And before we realize it, we're dependent on this institution. We suddenly feel like the world is a lot easier when we were back studying some subjects like Concrete design, pavement design, structural analysis, operation management and all of those curriculum mumbo-jumbo.

I am one of the few people to have different view on education in this country. Education is agreeably a part of making a better living, but it's always more about self-enrichment. It's hard for me to find myself surrender to systems, social assumptions, dogmas, and habits that are just questionable in basic. I can't follow public assumption which say that after all this, i need higher degree, i need to get a job to make paychecks (money -in fact- is NOT always about paychecks), or i need to do this, that, and all of that ooh's or bla-blas...

The way I see it. Now It's a chance to me to do whatever I want. I'd give back to the community in a way that are just best for me. This is an ideal, this is my belief. And for whatever reason I refuse to give up on that ideal. Giving up on an ideal is just another sign of being institutionalized."

Happy Graduation day folks! Your days of living just indeed started...

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